The option with the most promise
current mood: anxious
When I told Dad that I would be having my appointments on my Mondays off, he said it was a waste of a day off and I should spend it resting up for the week of work ahead. But Sunday’s the perfect day off for me. A lazy Sunday with Okashi, every week, is weekend enough for me.
Besides, I get to see Okashi today, too.
I decided that it would be best if I only asked her to come for the next few appointments. As much as I may worry sometimes that she may see me as the guy who saved her instead of just me, I don’t want her to think that I need saving. I may need a little boost here and there, but getting comfortable with the offered shoulder is a dangerous thing. It’s a crippling thing. For both.
So a little boost it is. Today is boost number two.
I open the door to the waiting area at Dr. B’s office, after having lost my way only once. Okashi’s already there.
"Konnichiwa Kevin." Okashi says as she stands and gives me a hug as I walk in. "I was starting to worry you will be late. How are you Kevin?"
I give her a squeeze as I answer, “Great. How’re you?”
"I am doing good." Okashi replies.
I forget myself for a moment and give her a kiss, but the hesitancy in her answer reminds me that we’re not alone and I quickly end it, cringing and whispering my apology. I guess for a moment, I forgot that this is Monday, not Sunday. I was distracted by the feel of Okashi in my arms.
So I slip out of her hold and take her hand, walking over to the receptionist to tell her I’m here for my appointment.
The receptionist nods and Okashi and I sit down. "With one session done, are you eager for your second one, Kevin?"
“Anxious for it, is perhaps the best way to put it,” I answer. “I think it’s going to take a bit more to get to know him. The question-volley felt sort of strange to me, more like an interview than a conversation.”
"The important thing is you are comfortable enough to talk about what you need to for him to help you."
“Yeah.” Maybe it’s because I don’t know him that I’m fine sharing all this with him.
"As long as it works." Okashi says with a smile.





